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  1. 26th January 2016 / 5:54 pm

    Wow….. I am really not sure what to say here. Your increadable. Your increadable not only for being able to face that, but for being able to put it into words that tell us the honest truth of chemo without making it sound like a horror story or a pity party. I can only hope that your next two sessions will be no worse than that, and that it does manage to kick the cancers arse. #TwinklyTuesday

    • 26th January 2016 / 6:09 pm

      Thank you so so much Tracey – I desperately didn’t want it to be a horror story – in the grand scheme of things it’s only a few days but it seems like an eternity at the time x

  2. 26th January 2016 / 6:27 pm

    Honestly – I don’t really know what to say, but I always read your updates and I didn’t want to read & run again. I think you are an incredible and strong woman and you are going to kick its ass. I won’t pretend I can even imagine what this is like for you, but you are amazing. Hoping the next two go easier on you. Keep going x

    • 26th January 2016 / 7:32 pm

      Thank you thank you x x I will keep going, I’ll get to the end and I know it will be so worth it x x

  3. 26th January 2016 / 6:28 pm

    This made me cry. Tears for everyone going through this and awe for the strength and courage you all have. Everything I want to say to you feels like a cliche, or feels empty because I have not walked in your shoes so cannot truly understand. My thoughts are with you Mim. x #twinklytuesday

    • 26th January 2016 / 7:31 pm

      Thank you so so much Claire, what you have said is more than enough and it means such a lot x

  4. 26th January 2016 / 7:08 pm

    I’m so happy that you decided to give a full account of your chemotherapy treatment. I had no idea what it entailed fully for you physically and mentally. I knew it was called the ‘red devil’ and now I know why!!!

    I think the way you’ve worded it is sensitive and I think it will help a lot of people that are going through it/may have to go through it/help family and friends understand more if they know someone who’s going through it.

    You’re incredibly brave and giving an honest account will definitely help you and anyone who reads it.

    Well done as well for going to get your head shaved, I bet that was so empowering for you.

    As they say ‘no pain no gain’! I hope that your next round of chemo are a little easier on you.

    Hugs

    Laura x

    • 26th January 2016 / 7:31 pm

      Thank you so much Laura for your lovely words :) You’re so right about no pain, no gain – it will totally be worth it! x

  5. 26th January 2016 / 8:27 pm

    I have been quietly following your journey and can’t tell you how strong I think you’re being. I think you did the right thing sharing everything like in this post. You haven’t written it in a scary, it is just how it is. I probably don’t have the words for you but sending lots of love. xxxx

    #twinklytuesday xx

    • 26th January 2016 / 8:44 pm

      Oh thank you Rachel, I was so worried it might be scary for others x x

  6. 26th January 2016 / 9:02 pm

    Reading this I really wanted to comment. You have really done the right thing in sharing your treatment. It sounds really hard what you are going through but not because of the way you have written it but because that is the way it is and I think it is great that you have documented it.

    You are really strong and brave lady and I think that your honest account will not only help you, because it is so empowering but others too :-). Thank you for sharing xx Ps Debs does sound amazing and lovely!

    • 26th January 2016 / 9:22 pm

      Thank you so much Emma, that is just such a lovely thing to say :) ‘Deb’ is amazing, I wish she could be my cheerleader every day :) x

  7. KymnRog
    26th January 2016 / 9:32 pm

    Hang in there Mim. Kym and I were moved by your account and admire your courage. We are so sorry that you have to endure such horrible treatment, but you are on the downhill run now. Sending you all our love and best wishes. Kym and Roger XXXOOO

    • 26th January 2016 / 9:45 pm

      Thank you so much to both of you, that’s just so lovely of you to think of me – I AM on the downhill run! x

  8. 26th January 2016 / 9:34 pm

    Oh Mim – it is such an horrendous time and I know exactly how you are feeling. All I can say is, I got through and I don’t think I was anywhere near as strong as you – so without a doubt you can. One of the best things in my life was ticking off each session and counting down to the last. 2 down for you – keep strong. Like you, I quickly learned who my true friends were. You learn a lot going through something like this and you will be a stronger person for it, although I know it doesn’t seem like that now. If you can, try and eat small amounts (even like a ginger biscuit) often. Ginger can help with nausea sometimes although I know how metallic and disgusting everything tastes. On week 3 try and get as much fresh air as you can as I think this really helps. Well done for being so brave about your hair! It’s so much better than the distress of it falling out. Sending lots of love and good luck for your next treatment, Mim. xx #TwinklyTuesday

    • 26th January 2016 / 9:44 pm

      Thank you thank you Sara, I know how you understand x x I love ticking off the sessions too – it feels like such a long way off but I cannot wait to get to the last one and give it a big TICK! x x

  9. Heidi
    26th January 2016 / 9:54 pm

    You are an absolutely incredible human and thank you for sharing this. I am so in awe of your bravery and your strength. Sending you so much love, light and many more big hugs. xoxoxo

    p.s. your new hair looks amazing!

    • 26th January 2016 / 9:55 pm

      Oh you’re so lovely thank you lady x x x ha ha my new hair needs a trim :) x x

  10. 26th January 2016 / 11:53 pm

    Mim. I want to hug you. It’s not a horror story, it’s your experience and as you say, it is different for everyone. I believe that knowledge is power and although you don’t want to scare future patients, knowing what to expect for me, would be helpful.

    What can I say other than you are amazing. I believe that knowledge is power and although you don’t want to scare future patients, knowing what to expect for me, would be helpful.

    • 27th January 2016 / 12:06 am

      Thank you lovely :) I completely agree that knowledge is power too x x

  11. 27th January 2016 / 1:24 am

    This is such a brilliantly written post. I feel your anger, but also your pain at going through this bloody awful thing. As you’ve said, knowledge is power, and any one going into this will find this post immensely helpful.

    Also, deb sounds amazing! This path might be awful, but there are some bloody good people along the way too.

    Lots of love xxx

    • 27th January 2016 / 1:37 am

      Oh thank you Megan :) Deb is so so wonderful – my whole Oncology team is :) x x

  12. 27th January 2016 / 3:48 am

    Bloody hell I just want to give you a huge hug. I am so angry that your friends haven’t called- too right they aren’t your friends anymore. I think you have absolutely done the right thing sharing the full story here as if it were me searching google for answers I would want to know. Lots of love to you and a big hug for your husband too, sounds like he is a marvel. xx

    • 27th January 2016 / 3:51 pm

      Oh thank you lovely! He really is :) x x

  13. 27th January 2016 / 6:15 am

    Dear sweet Mim, there are no words but know we are all rooting for you. Wishing you an easier experience third time around. Much love and lots of hugs xxx

    • 27th January 2016 / 3:52 pm

      Oh thank you so so much lovely, that means the world to me x x

  14. 27th January 2016 / 7:01 am

    I am glad you have written this. I used to work in oncology and you have no flipping clue how people are feeling. I used to say try and eat this, drink that but if they feel like you do, then I bet they wanted to tell me to F**k off. It’s an awful thing to go through but you will get there and look back when it is over; more positive (esp if you have cut the people out who haven’t called) and be an inspiration to so many others.

    Two to go…keep that in your mind xxx Lots of luck xx #twinklytuesday

    • 27th January 2016 / 3:52 pm

      Oh I bet they loved you there :) Thank you lady x x

  15. 27th January 2016 / 8:16 am

    Honestly you are so freaking brave!!! Your insight will no doubt be very helpful for those that are going through it!

    I hope you have more light than dark days and don’t forget there are so many of us on twitter to give you some words of encouragement when those dark clouds just won’t piss off!

    • 27th January 2016 / 3:52 pm

      Thank you thank you thank you so much!

  16. 27th January 2016 / 8:37 am

    You are incredible! Thank you for sharing! I hope the next round of chemo is easier for you xxx

    • 27th January 2016 / 3:53 pm

      Thank you so so much Kim! x

  17. 27th January 2016 / 8:40 am

    I don’t know what to say. You are one brave lady and you are and will fight this! Thank you for sharing your journey. Sending you loads of love #twinklytuesday xx

    • 27th January 2016 / 3:53 pm

      Thank you so much – that is the perfect thing to say :) x

  18. 27th January 2016 / 9:18 am

    Oh Mim, I read your post and I could hear the pain in your words, the sadness and the anger. You have been through so much and it isnt even over yet, but survived. You are so strong and so brave. I’m glad you have shared your experience with us. I had no idea just how awful and exhausting chemo is. Thank you for opening my eyes. I’ve been following your posts and will continue to. I hope that knowing some of us out here are following your story and care x. Emily #TwinklyTuesday

    • 27th January 2016 / 3:55 pm

      Thank you so much Emily, that means so much to me x x

  19. 27th January 2016 / 9:40 am

    I’m really sorry you have to go through all this repeatedly, Mim, it sounds like such a lot of suffering. I have never understood before what’s it’s like to experience cancer and chemotherapy but your posts are a real education and I know they’ll help me to be more understanding and empathetic if a friend or family member ever has to go through this (god forbid). You’re doing a brave and brilliant thing by removing some of the mystery around cancer treatment.

    • 27th January 2016 / 3:56 pm

      Thank you so much Robyn, I would love to be able to help others understand more for if they or their family have to go through it. It’s so difficult to articulate it sometimes but it means a lot to have your support x

  20. Claire
    27th January 2016 / 11:59 pm

    Hi,

    I read this last night and it made me cry, I’m still thinking about it this morning. You’re so brave for writing about it so openly when it must be such a scary time. I wish you all the best with the treatment, fingers crossed the second set is not as bad. I’ll be following you blog and updates.

    Claire x

    • 28th January 2016 / 1:00 pm

      Oh thank you Claire x x please know I am feeling MUCH better since writing the post, it was very therapeutic and the worst of my side effects have definitely gone for this cycle :) Bring on the next one! x

  21. 28th January 2016 / 1:17 am

    I feel so ignorant having read this. I knew it was awful but I had no idea about using a separate toilet and the potential for early menopause and fingernails falling off. I feel insanely guilty I didn’t realise just how harrowing chemo is when a University friend was going through it.

    Thank you for writing this account. I feel like I understand much more now (though, I suspect it’s the sort of thing you can never really understand fully without going through it).

    Good luck for your next one and I wish you and your family all the best.

    #TwinklyTuesday

    • 28th January 2016 / 12:59 pm

      Ah you wouldn’t have known, that’s part of the reason I wanted to write about it though, to try and share what chemo is like for some. Remember mine is AC chemo and your friend might have been on a completely different (and hopefully not as harsh) chemo. It’s all individual though. Please do not feel guilty for something you didn’t know x x x

  22. 29th January 2016 / 1:44 am

    Oh gosh I can’t imagine what it’s like or what you’re going through. You are inspirational and I am in awe. Sending all my love and best wishes to you xx

    • 29th January 2016 / 8:54 pm

      Thank you lovely, that is so so nice of you x x x

  23. 29th January 2016 / 8:23 am

    Oh Mim. You are so brave for sharing this – I knew chemo was something horrendous but I didn’t really know, you know? It probably sounds stupid, but I really wish we lived closer so I could be there for you (and that fits with the lovely comment you left me today, so I’m on my way, ok! ;)). I hate that you are going through this, you are brilliant and inspiring (even if you don’t feel it, I promise you, you are). Keep going lady, you’re doing wonderfully, and I always thought you would look great with a shaved head (I’m not kidding). Sending all the love and strength I possibly can xxxx

    • 29th January 2016 / 7:09 pm

      Oh thank you lovely Lou x x x hee hee I’ll have to share my new ‘look’ soon! x x PS move to Aus!

  24. 29th January 2016 / 8:40 am

    Mim, thank you for writing so honestly about your experiences of this illness and the treatment that goes with it. I feel as though I have learned a lot and take away from it new found knowledge that helps me in understanding more about how my own friends and family who have been affected by this bastarding thing. Your words are courageous and inspiring – I can see them helping so many people about to start their battle or who are already on that ‘journey’.

    Enjoy these next days with your family in the sunshine, and the biggest of well wishes for the next lot of treatment.

    x x x

    • 29th January 2016 / 7:07 pm

      Thank you so much Faye x x we’re definitely making the most of these few days :) x

  25. 29th January 2016 / 7:44 pm

    You really are amazing. I’ve been following your journey and I would like to hope if I’m ever in the same situation I would possess half the strength you do.

    • 29th January 2016 / 8:54 pm

      Oh thank you Fern! I hope you never have to – I wish no-one would ever have to do this. Thinking of my little family gets me through more than anything else x x

  26. 30th January 2016 / 7:38 am

    Mim,
    I am sitting here with tears rolling down my face. You are such a brave, inspiring, wonderful woman. I can’t even begin to imagine what you are going though during this time but your strength, determination and sheer power will get you through this. Your an inspiration and I’m sending you and your beautiful family all the love in the world right now xxxxx

    • 31st January 2016 / 4:20 pm

      Oh thank you so so much, that really means such a lot! x x

  27. 30th January 2016 / 7:57 am

    When I read a post like this it really does put life in perspective, I truly hope that you beat this. You sound like an incredibly brave lady and I think you are right to share the harshness of the treatment you are enduring. I’m sure you will bring strength to others too. x

    • 31st January 2016 / 4:19 pm

      Thank you so much! I’m definitely going to beat it :) x x

  28. Shiv
    30th January 2016 / 7:49 pm

    Oh Mim, so accurate, so shit and yet so beautifully written. keep strong chicken 2 down 3 or 4 to go. Sending so much love and strength to Oz. PS I bet you make a beautiful George Dawes ???? Xx

    • 31st January 2016 / 4:18 pm

      Thank you lovely – I know you know how I feel x x

  29. Alison Matthews
    31st January 2016 / 9:51 am

    Bless you Mim… Wish I was there in person to give you the biggest hug xx You have been very much in my thoughts along with my Auntie.

    A very honest account of what you are going through. It’s so true that the perception of chemo and its side effects are pretty much zoned into the sickness and hair loss thing. Which is not necessarily the case. Sat with tears in my eyes.. You can do this Mim! sending you lots of strength honey xx

    Tat xx

    • 31st January 2016 / 4:15 pm

      Thank you lovely lady x x I hope all is well with your Auntie too x x

  30. 31st January 2016 / 8:56 pm

    What a beautifully written post Mim. I think that you are wonderfully inspiring and probably the bravest woman I know. It’s dark and ugly and unfair but you are standing tall and doing everything you can to get through the other side. I think talking about it is a very positive thing as my mum couldn’t do this and struggles to communicate her feelings about it with us.
    Sending so much love to you. X

    • 31st January 2016 / 9:01 pm

      Thank you so much lovely! It’s so so easy to fall into negativity with this and even to depression, so easy. Being positive is such a huge challenge at times but it’s what will help me through in the end. I’m going to win :) x x

  31. 1st February 2016 / 8:01 am

    I don’t know how you manage to write such beautiful words about something so truly harrowing. And it is…even though as you say, it’s only for 6 days at a time, it is awful and you are so brave and so strong that I am in utter awe of you. I feel so so sad that you are having to deal with this but I equally feel that if anyone can kick it’s arse, it’s you. Thank you for sharing your brutal and honest account of your treatment. I don’t think anyone could have any idea of how awful it is but more people should. Love you lady – thanks so much for linking up with #TwinklyTuesday

    • 2nd February 2016 / 12:09 pm

      Oh thank you beautiful! Thank you thank you – I will absolutely beat this! x x

  32. 2nd February 2016 / 7:04 pm

    I’m just starting to get to know you through our SU group, and I can’t believe you’re going through this. Your honesty and pain brought me to tears. I’m hoping all the best for you.

    • 2nd February 2016 / 9:29 pm

      Oh thank you Christine – it’s all going to be just fine, I know it :) Can’t wait to get through the chemo though! x

  33. 2nd February 2016 / 7:31 pm

    This is incredible. Truly. Your honesty is breathtaking. I wish I knew what to say, I wish I could convey properly how brave you are for sharing such a harrowing experience but I don’t have enough words. Thank you so much for sharing this experience and I wish you so much luck for the rest of your treatment xxx

    • 2nd February 2016 / 9:28 pm

      Thank you lovely – and you DO have the words :) x x

  34. 2nd February 2016 / 11:06 pm

    Oh Mim, I don’t really know what to say. I’m glad you’ve told the truth of your experience because, you’re right, for those of us who haven’t been through this, we don’t really understand. For reasons I’m not going to bother you with, I was treated for something with one of the chemo drugs a few years ago & it made me very ill, I kind of extrapolated from that that to actually have chemotherapy with heavy and repeated doses of a full cocktail of those drugs must be pretty horrendous, but even so I would never have guessed at the full extent. I don’t understand, but I’d like to try, so I think you should keep sharing as much as you want to. You’re so brave, and you’re right – it isn’t fair at all. I hope that your third treatment went as well as it can do. Lots of love xx

    • 3rd February 2016 / 2:45 pm

      Thank you so so much – I really hesitated but I’m so glad I shared. I had my 3rd round this Monday and I already feel so much stronger in dealing with it – hoping that continues! x x

  35. 3rd February 2016 / 5:30 am

    Thank you for sharing your story. I appreciate your brutal honesty. I am praying that round three is going better than rounds 1 and 2. I am hugging my babies a little tighter today. #TwinklyTuesday

    • 3rd February 2016 / 2:35 pm

      Thank you so much! I had round 3 on Monday and so far, so good :) x x

  36. poutinginheels
    4th February 2016 / 12:17 am

    Mim, my love you ARE amazing. Thank you for sharing, for your honesty and for your courage. I had absolutely no idea how truly horrific chemo is. We’re ALL rooting for you and I tell you this, when this is all over and you’ve kicked that cancer’s ass, it’s the cancer that will be saying a few hail marys ;-) Sending much love. X

    • 5th February 2016 / 2:21 pm

      Oh thank you thank you lovely Katie!! x x

  37. 4th February 2016 / 9:52 am

    It’s not bloody fair, mate. But we’ll get there. I’m so sorry your ‘friends’ haven’t contacted you. It’s weird how sometimes you don’t feel like talking to people, but you don’t want to be abandoned either. Nothing more I can say except you know that I do understand what you’re going through xo

    • 4th February 2016 / 7:47 pm

      So so true! You totally understand lady x x

  38. debsrandomwritings
    7th February 2016 / 6:48 am

    Hi Mim, from friends I have heard how lousy chemo can make you feel and to think that anyone has to go through that in order to get well again makes me shudder, but I have no doubt that it’s better than the alternative.

    I admire your honesty, it can’t be an easy experience to share and I love your attitude. I hope round three is easier on you.

    xx

    • 10th February 2016 / 1:30 pm

      Thank you so much Debs – it’s definitely feeling a little easier this round in lots of ways x

  39. Lisa
    9th May 2016 / 8:13 am

    I only found your blog last week and I really wish I had found it sooner. I was diagnosed with breast cancer in November 2015 and started the first of 4 AC chemotherapy on the 15th of December. Reading this really upset and touched me, it is like you were me, you wrote everything I felt and I only wish I could have put it into words as honest and eloquent as you did, maybe then the people around me would have had better understanding of how awful AC really is. But I like you survived the 4 AC and started taxol which is easier (it couldn’t be any worse). Your attitude is fantastic and I really enjoy your blog.

    • 9th May 2016 / 12:49 pm

      Oh thank you so much and, despite the circumstances, it’s lovely to hear from you. Email me if you ever want a chat – I hope your treatment is going really well :) x

  40. Christina
    2nd August 2016 / 4:34 pm

    Hi Mim, Found your Blog while looking for info on side effects for 2nd treatment of Chemo, was a bit scary to say the least, but you came through at the other end so I suppose I will too.
    So far worst has been the dry mouth like you have eaten a handful of flour, but that has now passed.
    The Indigestion I have been able to manage with a health store product called ” Gut Relief” from Nutralife, you can only get it a a health food store, it’s pricey at $45 but is well worth the price. I also ended up with an infected finger from a small scratch, which I required antibiotics for, just so much fun.
    Am feeling a bit tired by end of the day but am lucky enough to have retired, so can have a “Nana” nap if I need, have also had muscle pain, but just have to give in to the body when it tells me to. Oh yeah and the hair has been falling out for the last 3 days, feel a bit like Donald Trump at the moment, but am trying to get in touch with my hairdresser for the “Shave”.
    I hope you have finished all your treatments & are well on the way to recovery.
    Thanks for the Blog.

    • 3rd August 2016 / 1:23 pm

      Thank you Christina and I hope you’re feeling well. It’s a very hard thing to go through but you will definitely come out the others side :) wishing you the very best for the rest of your treatment x

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